Tabitha...awww...

Isle Of Skye

Nothing to say today...

I thought I would say nothing today for a change.
Wow..that's not like me. LOL!
Well, maybe just one thing:
I thought, I'd post a piccie from Scotland today.
The above piccie, is of the Isle of Skye.
Have a great day everybody!

Thank you ..Thomas ! :>

And, thanks Heather...for your advice! ;) You're da best!

Salut..

~A New World~

To be alive at all involves some risk. -- Harold McMillan

I'm in a new world.
I hear new sounds in this place.
Smells, which surround me are stronger.
Nothing, is the way it was before.
It's like being thrust into a new dimension.
We have no control over the timing on this.
We all just have to go with it.
The wind will take us, wherever it wants us to go.
But, I will always have my home in my heart.
I know, where I belong.
And, I know, where I must travel.
I know, who I should meet.
And, I know, who to avoid at all costs.
I know, who to talk to, and, where I should be.
Sometimes, things happen too slowly for us.
Impatience; can, be like a constant pin prick upon the skin.
Accept that, things will be the way they are meant to be..
Life is easier...
When, you believe in something totally.
Nobody should be able to say anything to disuade you.
When, you trust something purely,
And, you honestly, just walk down the road.
Do you think you're supposed to do this?
Take a risk!
Yes!
You are probably on the right track.
And, you don't even know it.
Isn't that the best way?
Go with the natural flow.

--Flashes Of Clarity--

Most writers regard truth as their most valuable possession, and therefore are most economical in its use. --Mark Twain

Spooked by faded ghosts.
Gone for so many years.
Yet, somehow they re-emerge.
Sometimes, when you least expect them.
Rattling the chains which link your soul to theirs.
Does this mean that the haunting never ends?
Or, is the mind's eye a shelter which, keeps the fears we have alive inside?
Can we break the pattern we think we should follow?
Or, is the truth already implanted inside our souls?
Can the flesh that we live in disguise our true selves?
One day you are awoken by the revelation of truth.
A truth so powerful that it consumes you to take your most honest actions.
Once afraid to be yourself.
And, then in a flash of clarity, it is all you can do.
And, you feel what you've believed in, for so long.
You must let those feelings ignite inside, and, breathe it all in slowly.
Don't forget the dragon's breath which rests inside.
It can turn into a fire which cannot be put out.
Instead, let it be the sweetest of burning desires that you exhale.

Helloo..

Bedtime..

*Don't Let Your Dreams Die*

Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die life is a broken-winged bird that cannot fly -- Langston Hughes


Sifting through the worst parts..
To get to the good stuff.
I've had enough, of that drowning feeling in the hard moments.
Hungry, for forbidden food.
Thirsty, for my weakening breath.
But now, I have a new light shining over me.
And, this beam..
Is much brighter than it was before.
This time,
I've learned my lesson well.
I promise, I won't be that way again.
Let me live.
Let me breathe.
Let me stay here for as long as possible.
I have so much, I have to say.
And, I want to be heard.
Don't we all though...?
Everyone, is happy when you ask to hear their stories.
Well, of course.
We all have a place here in history.
You don't need to be rich, to have had a rich life.
The rich man with no stories to tell, is a very poor man indeed.
Who wants to waste their life on fear?
Not me!
I want to say that I lived, and, I lived life to the fullest.
No regrets!
No worries!
Within reason!
Just a small carving...
In the enormous global projection of things.
But, if you choose the right words in life...
Those words can make you stand tall.
With the bad, comes wisdom, and lessons we must learn.
With the good, comes the rewards, and the things worth waiting for.
Never sacrifice your dreams for someone else.
No one on this earth is worth it.
Ask yourself this question...
"Would he or she do the same for me?"
I don't think so, do you?


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BIG SMILE :)

Strike a pose..

Glow..

~~Hiding Behind Myself~~

The opportunity and ability you have to exert focused, disciplined effort is one of the greatest blessings of life. Make use of it every chance you get, and you'll fill your life with true, lasting rewards.
-- Ralph Marston


I hesitate..
Not because, I forgot what I was about to say.
It's only because, I'm scared of your reaction.
I remember..
Those days when I had no fear.
When I was younger,
I would blurt out, the things that I really wanted to say.
What has happened to those days..?
When do we wake up and suddenly say..
"Today, I'm not going to say how I REALLY feel..."
Maybe, I'll just hide behind myself, so as not to hurt someone's feelings.
I hope I'll be myself today.
There is just no other way to be.
Are these things that come to us, supposed to be easy?
Sometimes, it feels like the opposite is true.
Too much of our time is spent on dwelling.
I sit and look at pictures, and think what happened to that time.
Simple, happy, no fear times.
They seem so far away now.
And, where did I go?
Hello? Am I still here inside...?
Have I gone too deep to be retrieved..?
Or, do I need him to bring it out of me?
Locked away in a shell for far too long.
He has held the key to my heart for centuries..
And, I long to give my heart back to him.
I have..
But, does he know that yet..
I hope time will tell.
I believe in him totally..
And, my feelings will never be wavered.

hmmm...

---Desiring Mysteries---

"If you're going to survive out there, you've really got to know where your towel is." -- Ford Prefect (Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy) (Douglas Adams)

Where do the roots of all things exist?
Do we imagine the pasts we've lived in?
Are the things we believe real?
Or..
Are, we living in fantasies?
I'd like to wander around forever.
Is there something more for me, than this?
I hope so!
I'm trying so hard to change my fate.
I try so hard to mould myself into something else.
But, what though?
I'm not sure sometimes.
I tell myself that the truth cannot be erased.
No matter how hard I've run before.
These fears can't last forever, can they?
Hiding from tears to make us feel safe.
Existance.
Resistance.
I feel like I can't breathe sometimes.
But, he said, and she said...
And, they all say, this and that.
I just want to be safely with him.
I ache for his arms to surround me, each night.
I long; only, for his comfort and protection.
Will I only receive a place in his memories?
Or, is there a part of me, that he keeps closer to his heart?
Do I desire mere mysteries of days gone by?
Old haunts, which remind me of our sweet past.
A deep-rooted emotional bond, which I'll never forget.
Forgive me, I love you too much.
Remember me, please, when you close your eyes.
I always do.
I try to squeeze all of my new moments in.
And, all I have ever really wanted is you.
I hope you know, that this is something true.

Schmile! :)

Ahhh....

--~Finding The Way~--

Monday, March, 21st, 2005

"Experience is not what happens to you, it is what you do with what happens to you." ~Aldous Huxley

Of course, it's you again.
I heard you in the back of my mind.
Trying to find a way inside.
Search for my deep, dark thoughts.
Hunt them down..
C'mon, I dare you.
Covering the tracks of my words..
Fearful of how you'll feel after I say,
the things I need to say to you.
Doing things backwards.
Will you be the one that saves me?
Pull me out of the darkness that once plagued me.
Independence, urged me to forget the way it would be with you.
It's hard to explain to you.
Staying lost!
I just can't win.
Steps away from ecstasy.
Keep letting the doubts seep in.
The fears we all live in.
The things we hold on to for comfort.
Heated truths we lock within.
Fireworks are sparking from your mind to mine.
Your thoughts ignite my soul alive.

Small Glass Worlds

Don't you wish there were a knob on the TV to turn up the intelligence? There's one marked 'Brightness', but it doesn't work.
Gallagher

We all live in small glass worlds..
Trying to fill the void.
Feels like things will always be this way.
Which is a silly way to think, hmm..?
Change happens whether we like or not.
Of course, ..
We end up being contained by the undertow of inner thoughts..
Dilemmas which plague us daily.
Memories we escape inside.
Loves we can't erase.
Don't break me..
I should have a label on my forehead which says:
'Fragile'..please, handle with care.
Those things which once taunted us, now try to haunt us.
Breaking the cords of familiarity can be a daunting task.
But, we all do things in our own time.
We all look at things in our own sweet way.
With all this mind..
Is it fair for so many to try and taint us, and break our worlds apart...?
Small-minded people, here's is my message to you:
Keep away from me!
Go your own way.
I have had enough for today.
I don't feel like playing this game anymore.
What is the deep-rooted hurt that still ails you so...?
Deal with it!
And, leave me alone!!!

Shazzie

Shazzy

The First Entry...

Sometimes people carry to such perfection the mask they have assumed that in due course they actually become the person they seem.

W. Somerset Maugham (1874-1965), The Moon and Sixpence

I live with the memory of you. Now, I only have the chance to dream.
And, I take all my chances to do so. I feel so trapped when I'm awake, you see.
So, strangled in my own realities. Although, when it comes to you, I have no fear.
Yet, why do I still feel this way? Afraid of someone else's words being more;
powerful, than my own. Time, is drifting past me too quickly for my liking.
The drama of yet another minute coming and going again. Wouldn't it be nice if we
could just shove those things out of the way. Those things that try so hard to get into our heads.
I know, this one thing for sure: You are still on my mind! No one will ever take your place. Although, I've tried and tried to find something new for so long. My thoughts, always bring me back to you. Do you feel the same way too? Please, tell me that you do. I keep drifting through
each day with these endless thoughts of tomorrow. What will it bring?
And, if I really acted like myself around you. Would you like the real me? Or, would you prefer the mask that I wear. I'd rather be myself, if that's ok with you.