~~Hiding Behind Myself~~

The opportunity and ability you have to exert focused, disciplined effort is one of the greatest blessings of life. Make use of it every chance you get, and you'll fill your life with true, lasting rewards.
-- Ralph Marston


I hesitate..
Not because, I forgot what I was about to say.
It's only because, I'm scared of your reaction.
I remember..
Those days when I had no fear.
When I was younger,
I would blurt out, the things that I really wanted to say.
What has happened to those days..?
When do we wake up and suddenly say..
"Today, I'm not going to say how I REALLY feel..."
Maybe, I'll just hide behind myself, so as not to hurt someone's feelings.
I hope I'll be myself today.
There is just no other way to be.
Are these things that come to us, supposed to be easy?
Sometimes, it feels like the opposite is true.
Too much of our time is spent on dwelling.
I sit and look at pictures, and think what happened to that time.
Simple, happy, no fear times.
They seem so far away now.
And, where did I go?
Hello? Am I still here inside...?
Have I gone too deep to be retrieved..?
Or, do I need him to bring it out of me?
Locked away in a shell for far too long.
He has held the key to my heart for centuries..
And, I long to give my heart back to him.
I have..
But, does he know that yet..
I hope time will tell.
I believe in him totally..
And, my feelings will never be wavered.