So, anyway...

I keep seeing the same exact sign every day..here it is:'First you dream it, then you live it.' by Unknown

Good words to live by.
As of late, I have been having intense dreams.
Dreams in which I am fighting my Father.
Dreams in which I am trying to knock some sense into him with my words.
It takes it out of me so much.
But, the nice thing that happened last evening was when a friend of mine showed up.
He finished off telling him off for me and, carried the weak me to a safe place.
Now, to understand this dream, you'd have to understand the whole story.
A story which is too long to go into here on my blog because, it would turn into a novel.
But, you get the idea of the intensity of the dream.
Having conversations in my sleep with people, I remember who I was conversing with when I wake up, of course.
Why is life so bizarre sometimes?
Blindly spinning around with the multitude of folks you never even notice.
Is everything fated?Is everything planned?
Or, do we choose and change things on a constant basis?
Well, I like to believe in fate and some things do change.
Perhaps, I take some of my moments too seriously.
But, then I feel like there's not enough time to do everything that I'm trying to do.
I wake up sometimes and, wonder how I ended up where I am today.
Like the questions you acn't get away from asking yourself.
For me, these are just some questions that I ask:
Why do I have crohns?
Why do I have to fight it?
Why I have been given this task?
To learn ..?
Yes, of course.
And, for the record..
I'm glad I have crohn's.
Yes, that's right.
Glad, I say.
That might not make sense to anyone who has it, or knows someone who has it.
You have to go through certain things sometimes to appreciate the world around you.
So, for that I am truly thankful.